I'm a sober, athletic guy living a healthy lifestyle, both before and after my diagnosis. At no time did the cancer itself make me look or feel sick. It was the after-effects of the simultaneous chemo and radiation therapies I received daily for 6 weeks in spring '18 that were crippling. I was almost exclusively house-bound for close to 6 months. Right now I'm trying to settle back into my job. I'm back at the gym regularly. My life looks close to how it did pre-cancer. But it's not the same at all. I feel like a watermelon that has had all the tasty fruit inside scooped out. And I'm carrying a 50-lb weight on my shoulders. I'm tired much of the time. My legs don't move like they used to. There's a kind of buzz or numbness or throbbing in my head - I don't know how to describe it - that never goes away.
How cancer relates to me: