Well since switching to a new antidepressant I've been feeling somewhat better, but there is still that void of not returning to work and giving myself a chance to try after my cancer treatments ended. I know it's been a long time since that, but I will always wonder how things might have turned out. I'm not really enjoying being retired. It's a frustrating place to be especially now that I am healthier. I remember someone telling me here not to let anyone (including myself) talk me into retiring. I think that is what happened. Sometimes if I think about something for too long it comes to fruition. I really should have gone back to work on a graduated return.