.I hought I had a hard time coming up I didn't know that I would be coming up to something like this. this past October in 2019,my mom had to come back to canada to help mu sister deliver her baby. she had had a pretty bad cough for the past six months and she was told it was bronchitis. Unfortunately so come October she within a day or two she has a huge lump under throat after that we decided to go for more testing the family doctor had referred her to the emergency room ASAP. The next morning we were told it was lymphoma. after further testing took two weeks we were told that it was small cell lung cancer that started in the lungs spread to the lymph nodes, lower back & to her spine. 3 days after she started her first chemo session. It was stage 4, and if she hadnt started, she would have been gone within weeks. She responded well to therapy and then come February 2019 she radiated the part of her lung where the tumor had shrunk but remain. There was a discussion about doing brain radiation but the doctor said they prefer not to unless they found something. today is May 15th and as of last week we found out that cancer is back and it had spread to her brain, ovaries and above the kidney so she's starting chemo again and full brain radiation. I have never been so scared in my life. I am 30, my mom is 48 & I have 3 younger siblings. The two with her now say she has given up doesnt want to do anything. :( I am going back home to see her in a month. I am so scared I would lose her within that time. I don't know how to keep being strong for my siblings. I dont know how to keep believing if will be ok when I know how bad it is. I dont dont if I can close my eyes with out feeling the day is close. Its so hard to keep being strong..