Runner Girl , of COURSE you have a push mower — you also run! Oh, I’m laughing so hard right now! (‘cause I’m so not that.)
I DID get my lawn mowed today, and was shocked to see that I hadn’t run the gas out of it last fall. I turned the air blue - not just from needing about 5 tries to start it with old gas, but also because the old gas had something to release.
I don’t think it’s been the actual task that’s stolen my gardening mojo - I think it’s been more about the weather. I did get a couple other bits done while I was out there - put in the peony rings, seeded a few sparse patches of the lawn. I hope that if we get a couple of nice days in a row, I might even get some annuals and get them in the ground!
I wonder how you are doing? Day by day.... as i am sure you know so well. Good news about your work.
I read your posts often and get much inspiration and strength from them. You can do this, even though it might be very hard.
The person I had been involved with for two years cheated on me and lied about it, and couldn't even face me-to end it- I had to be a detective and ask skillful questions, as he ended it on a phone call.... it came kind of out of the blue, though, intuition told me much.....something I ignored, as my mother was dying and my focus was with her.
I am still working through my feelings around this...though I wish I could say I was completely free of it and have completely moved on, and arrived a full forgiveness.....This was back in July . Ah well, I do still have a sense of humour....Day by day, little steps, and trusting myself now always.
This is about you though, not me. The reason I share some of my story, besides some loose parallels, is that I feel when we go through really tough times in our life- it affects others who are close to us, of course, and we really find out about who people are- and what they are capable of or not, for better or worse- not that it makes it any easier. We also find out about ourselves . This happened when you are very vulnerable . I am sorry this happened to you. Spring is here, a time of new growth and beginnings. As others here wisely say- one door closes and a new door opens.....
Thanks for sharing what you have been going through.
Keep us posted on how you are doing.