Fear of Failure Which Was Baggage I Carried A My Lead to A Lot of Stress In My Life
I will start by saying that my cancer community handle is SpeedyStill. and I will go al the way back to Elementary School. I was born November 13/1947 and started grade one early. My cousin was born in February of the following year. I know this has changed for the better and parents have the choice of starting school or holding back their son or daughter. I was definitely not ready. I would look out the window and pretend I was outside playing. Because I was not listening to the Teacher my marks were not good. I was also left handed and back then they tried to get me to use my right hand which was a complete disaster. Right handed children were treated as being smarter because that was the normal hand to use. Now I am also color blind which is actually not correct terminology. People like me have trouble distinguishing browns and greens blue and purple it is more that our eyes have trouble with different Shading. When I started coloring the grass light brown they thought this kid is really mixed up.
I don't remember exactly when I got the Nickname Speedy which even the teachers would use. My recollection is that a Teacher thinking they were smart started the Nickname.
I think it is important that a message should not be too long so I am going to give you the punch line now.
This went on up until grade 3 and no surprise I failed grade 3 and watched all of my friends move ahead to grade 4.
I can't imagine the severe hurt that I felt all I can say is that I carried this baggage with throw my entire life
So as I see it I am still Speedy after all these years