I have my surgery scheduled for next Friday to remove my large tumor on my right thyroid. For months I have had a "dull roar" headache / ear / jaw pain, then about 10 days ago it intensified on my left side. Came on fast and stopped me in my tracks, brought tears to my eyes kind of pain. It has been relentless pain, I am unable to sleep without crazy amounts of advil. My doctors tried two different pain killers, but they make me sick and I still feel the pain. They told me that it is likely that my tumor has infiltrated my recurrent laryngeal nerve and this is referred pain. On top of that pain, all my lymph nodes on my left side are swollen and burning. I have had to go on leave early as I am not sleeping and in so much pain. Now that my surgery is so close I can not take the advil, and am only able to take the pain killers or Tylenol. It is going to be a rough 9 days. I have a prescription for CBD oil, and that helps a little. I have stopped talking to some of my friends as I feel like such a 'Debbie Downer' all the time, nothing but bad news every time we talk. I am trying to be stoic, but I cry by myself in secret so that they don't see my pain. My kids, I must protect them as they are struggling seeing me like this. I am sorry for being one of those members to post a downer of a thread topic.
My son has a gratitude journal for an assignment at school. I have decided to hop on that assignment myself. In the midst of all this pain, I will be writing in his journal with him. Every day we will write down what we are grateful for, and why. Shift our focus on what we have to be thankful for. I hope to show them how to persevere and compartmentalise the pain and difficult times.