My wife passed away on October 16, 2016 from vulvar cancer that Spread into her bones, liver, lungs and brain. I have PTSD, complicated grief, and depression. I am continuously living her cancer still in my head vividly. I have recently been diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer. I can’t even comprehend this for I am still stuck in my wife’s cancer fight. At this point, I am more afraid of life then of death, for I feel that my life was with my wife and I am now in limbo wanting to be back with her again. I am scared I am confused and I am fighting this alone with no friends or family for we lived a very sheltered life because she had a life of epilepsy which most people were afraid to be around so we didn’t have much for friends. We moved from BC to Calgary Alberta to fight her cancer now I live in a small town in Alberta, I don’t know where I am I only have my counsellor and doctor and mental health professionals to count on and help me through my struggles. I still have my CT scan to do on the 21st, I see my oncologist on the 24th to find out my complete staging.