In February 2017 our world turned upside down as my husband was diagnosed with stage IV rectal cancer. We had no clue as to what to expect. He started chemo on March 22nd 2017 and responded well so his oncologist changed his treatment. From that point on the cancer progressed slowly and is attacking his liver. We are unsure about the outcome. In February 2019 on my birthday he developed a pulmenary embolism for which he has to inject a blood thinner daily. In May he was hospitalized for a pain in his right side. He also had a fever for a few days. They gave him an intravenous antibiotic during hisv5 day stay in the hospital and after several tests (scan, blood work, ultrasound) they couldn't really pin point the problem. His liver had inflammation due to the several mets so they concluded that this was the cause of his pain and fever. The mets were squeezing the bile ducts. He hadn't received any chemo for the past 4 or 5 weeks since we were waiting to see if our insurance company would pay for an oral chemo treatment that costs 6600$ a month...with insurance our cost is about 1300$. I started a Gofundme page to help with the costs but now we're not sure he can even take the chemo since his belirubin is too elevated . He has been receiving intravenous chemo accompanied by an oral one but at the end of every treatment we never know what to expect, he isvp experiencing a little jaundice and a lit of fatigue. My father passed away just a couple of weeks ago...so now i'm not sure i have the strength to go through all of this. We have 5 kids and 8 grandchildren...my husband is only 55 and I 51. I try to put up a strong front, but i feel like i'm breaking down slowly. Feels good to put this out. Even though I have a pretty good support system it's still hard.