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Darkness
I'm about to loose my so called business in radio no one gives a darn, except disconnected words in chat ... I get so lonely even though I'm married 20... all they offer me is pills and drugs... to keep me quiet and calm....zombie in a bed to die..... 52 yes old and best I get is begging for nickles on a corner... how can a God love his children so much yet let them die horrible deaths... 💔😢😔😫 texting words on computer seem so fake.... I'm sock of it all
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Runner Girl
2144 Posts

@Rocken Buddha

I am sorry to learn that you are going to lose your business. It sounds like your condition has deteriorated some, or is that being caused by medication?

Runner Girl

Was caretaker of wife 15 Yrs then 2020 cancer hit and let say each month more and more of my 52 years disappears to point I feel I never existed... I'm getting to point where nothing matters
Runner Girl
2144 Posts

@Rocken Buddha

What is happening that has you feeling like nothing matters?

Have you been able to talk with someone at your local cancer centre, a social worker or counsellor maybe?

Runner Girl

I need face 2 face texting and phone loose my vibe and visuals

@Rocken Buddha

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know my words might not mean much when you really are craving face to face. Unfortately, much of that has gone by the wayside with covid , though things are opening up. You may be able to find in person counseling and help through your cancer centre or hospital. You may also want to call our Ccancer Information Helpline after the weekend and they could point you in the direction of some in person resources in your area if they are available. They are at 1-888-939-3333

But if you are really feeling like this is getting all too much, I encourage you to call the 24/7 crisis line so you can talk to someone real time whenever you need it. Their # is 1-833-456-4566.

Does your doctor know how you are feeling or is that who you feel is prescribing the medication without offering solutions?

Keeping you in my thoughts.

Lianne

My family doctor don't know me pills are her answer doctors still a miss too why I " still got cancer" the pressure of being held down can't do a thing could talk all day about it problem still there
supersu
498 Posts

@Rocken Buddha

I am so sorry.

PLEASE, reach out to the distress line – let them help you in person.

with love
su

Distress line??
JustJan
1033 Posts
Rocken Buddha‍ I believe supersu‍ means the crisis line.

There is 24/7 crisis line so you can talk to someone real time whenever you need it. Their # is 1-833-456-4566.
Trillium
1576 Posts

Rocken Buddha‍ - Finances cause so much stress for me too. I think it is a major source for most people. Are you losing your business because you are too ill to take care of it or is it out of your control?

Can you get caregiving help for your wife so you are not the only one?

I hope you don’t feel like we are online fakes (lol) because we are real people here with our real lives that suck at times too.

I don’t work for a pharmaceutical company but I love my antidepressant. I know it can be a pain to try different meds to get the right one for depression or anxiety but to add cancer treatments on top of that well, I can only imagine how hard that would be.

Perhaps if you ask for a face to face counsellor at your cancer clinic they can find you one. Things are starting to open up again. They really can be helpful. An occupational therapist would also be able to help you with employment issues related to your cancer and caregiving for your wife and they are also available through your hospital.

Talking about these things here can lead to making things better somehow.

Don’t let depression steal more from you. Medication and or talking to a counsellor (social worker, psychologist, psychiatrist) does work and does help.

Thanks for being here with us and talking to us.

Warm hugs
Trillium

@Rocken Buddha -just checking in to see how you are doing. I wanted to give you another resource that may be helpful. It is through Wellspring and deals specifically with financial worries brought on by a cancer diagnosis. THe link is here : https://wellspring.ca/online-programs/programs/all-programs/money-matters/

Take care

Lianne

Already in service loop... And its nothing they going to fix in 3 weeks 2 days 14 hrs ...so the darkness grows...

@Rocken Buddha - it is likely that not one thing is going to change everything that needs to be changed but my hope is that a bunch of small changes can help bring a little bit of light back in for you. The CCS helpine and/or the crisis line that was provided may also have other avenues for you to try.

CCS helpine - 1-888-939-3333

Crisis canada line - 1-933-456-4566.

Lianne

So I called the so called suicide hot line .... If your not standing on a chair rope around your neck .... Sorry we can't help
Brighty
7488 Posts
Rocken Buddha‍ I am concerned about you. Are you able go to emergency at the hospital? There are 24 hour physhiayrists and social workers available there.
They never have the help I need small town..
Whitelilies
1476 Posts

@Rocken Buddha Hello…..I too worry over finances…and yes, it all sucks….perhaps a loan from a bank? You can call….you can go in person…..during these “covid times”…perhaps the parameters are a bit “looser”, and they CAN help you…..

Did you apply for CERB payments? Govt helps people with “temporary income”, if covid affected their workplace/halted work etc.

Please keep sharing with us; we care !!

Whitelilies

My wife disabled 16 years we couldn't qualified for cerb payments...

@Rocken Buddha

How frustrating to continue to reach out for help and be turned away. I'm very sorry that has been your experience. Thank you for trusting our community the way you have to share your experiences. We are eager to help and offer suggestions that have helped us in the past.

I think you might find it helpful to call and speak to an Information Specialist from our Cancer Information Helpline. By speaking over the phone you can share what you are experiencing and they can do their best to look into resources for you and help you navigate this complex situation. You can reach them at 1-888-939-3333. If you prefer not to speak over the phone you can email the helpline from here.

I sincerely hope this helps,

Lacey

Brighty
7488 Posts

Rocken Buddha‍ just wanted to check in on you and see if you are feeling any better today. We're you able to call the cancer info line? I was thinking perhaps you can even try a walk in clinic. They can give you something to take temporarily until you find a doctor. I had this wonderful walk in doctor that gave me something to take as needed ...something that was not addictive. He also talked to me over the phone and did an anxiety /depression assessment. He checked in on me by phone once a week . He also referred me to whomever I needed.

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