I think recovery from cancer treatments is a slow process and it's too bad there is not more support in this area. I read some of my posts and I kept talking about retirement without really realizing what this would look like for me. I know now it was a huge mistake and I am trying to deal with my feelings. I wish now I had at least tried to return to work when my Onc. told me too last January. It's a shame it takes a year for the actual cancer treatment effects to wear off and one is finally feeling whole again. I can't believe I'm not back at my job. I start my volunteer job on Monday, this will be a whole new experience for me. I hope it goes okay. I also stopped by Douglas College again and spoke with the manager. He was very nice despite the fact that I was unable to take the job offer. He says to apply again in June. It's a long time until June and I'm not getting any younger. Hopefully I can manage working again without the gradual return to work that Manulife would have provided. I'm very disappointed in myself.