I finally talked with my new Health and Benefits person at work. She is very nice and is helping me figure out the next steps towards a return or early retirement.. I've really given it a lot of thought and even though I miss some aspects of my work and the people I connect with, I just can't see me going back. I've got all the paper work for applying for early retirement. My Manulife caseworker is calling me next week and I may have to do a few steps with that procedure, but it sounds like it will be okay. They would be setting me up with a gradual return to work anyway as my chemo onc okay'd a modified return to work. I feel better about it all. I will keep you posted how things go in the next few weeks.