Hello Whatzyourz - I'm sorry to read of your situation.  I can see where you'd be scared! I would be too.
As far as I know my HER2 positive breast cancer has not spread, but of course it could.  All I can offer to you is are two sayings I've used for many years, in many situations.
The first is to take one day at a time.  That's all you have any control over.  Make each day the very best and at least you'll have that good day. You cannot control tomorrow, or the day after.

The second saying is the Serenity Prayer, used by many people in similar situations - I offer it for you, in your circumstances today -
"God (and in my way of thinking that can be any power greater than yourself - doesn't have to be the religious image.)
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (that might be the growth that is on top of your skull);
. . . the courage to change the things I can (just for today, maybe that's positive thinking, or improved diet, or more exercise, or more fun. . .)
... the wisdom to know the difference (don't worry about what you cannot change, but take the action that you can to make your today a good one.)

I have found that repeating the Serenity Prayer endlesssly keeps me from getting too far ahead of myself.  
I wish you the best, for today.
Flyingfree56

Hi Whatzyourz, I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 02 I had bi-lateral mastectomy and 6 months of aggressive chemo. After 5 years of tamoxifen, I thought I was  free and clear. In the early summer of 08 I had some hip and back pain. I had a bone scan that showed bone mets all over (base of skull, hips, back, pelvis, arms... Well I felt as you do. I wanted to sell everything and travel the world, feeling I would not last long. However, once I spoke with my oncologist, I found there are many treatment options, so please try to stay positive (I know this is difficult!). Keep an open mind to the options you are offered, Olivia Newton-John calls herself a breast cancer thriver, I love this term! My Doctor has explained to me that with all the new treatments we are making breast cancer a chronic illness instead of a death sentence. It is well over 3 years now and I am fighting for many more years. All the best in your journey.xo

Hi There Im 2nd hand lion I had breast cancer 11 yrs ago and found out its back.not that long ago.I Iunderstand your fears it sucks big time.The best thing I can tell you is not to get ahead of yourself because you will drive yourself nuts, and you have enough to deal with.
Feel free to contact me take care

I am still waiting for the results for my bone scan. Been three weeks now but they said it takes awhile. I have been blessed that my catscan and now my lipnoids are cancer free. It was the best day when I heard that.

I don't know what to say but try and keep strong and positive. The treatment is so much better today and cancer can be beaten. I will keep you in my prayers and keep strong so you can fight this terrible disease.